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| amorada...  TE AMOOO...mi ratoncientoooo=) | | |
| and feel as horrible as I was in brooklyn. Don´t ask me why, I really don´t know why im certain feeling icky at the momment. Perhaps it´s my stuffy nose, and cold fingers. Or the fact that it´s just so different here. It´s my fifth day,...shit man, im scared of this ending. Even though i have about 25 more days to go. I dont want to go back home empty handed, I want to come home with new expriences...and confidence. I´ve lost it, lost it all. I´m not alone, I have tons of people tobe around with. but, i´m just so used to being in solitude that it´s got to me. Do you understand?, do you understand the empty feeling in you, but you know your full ....ahh...I can´t change, i´ve been like this to long. help. | | |
| I feel so drugged and out of it, it's unbearable. I've grown to have a bit of cravings for ciggerates. Which is horrible in my case, but hey! it kills hunger pains. I think i need glasses, because everytime i look at something close i squint  . The days,and days become shorter & shorter. And here I am, sitting in this chair. Writing this, as we currently speak. I can't say it's horrible, because it isn't. Last summer was shitty as fuck, so I can't complain. But the fact of me missing 3 weeks of school scares me a bit. Why? because i really don't want to stay in madison for any longer. Every time i think of that place, I cringe. It will possibly effect my transfer, >.<;; (i really hope it dosen't) Ah,yeah so I haven't picked up my report card for the 27th. So my mom's been "Bah,bah you better of not gotten summer school! or else your gonna make up those classes again as a sophomore!" Ugh, way to make me feel better madre. I really,really, am praying and hoping to go things go good& well. | | |
| But when I saw him, for the first time in a year or so. I just stopped for a little, and realized how much he's grown. He was taller, his face was matured....he looked different. I'm pretty sure our minds were running with the same thoughts, because we just seemed like mindless, just staring off at eachother. I wish i could of done something, held his hand or something. Show him that i've cared, but I only see him once a year...in new years or one of our many occastions. I wished he could of stayed longer... I have a crush on my first kiss. -->Edit. Yeah,well I'm planning on getting a monroe. My lips are to small for snake bites anyway, perhaps a septum too. | | |
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